the summer is here and times feel right.
i'm going to roll up my jeans and make 'em tight.
shoveling sand to create a foundation for a pool.
biking through the night air, rain drops on my face.
there are lightning bugs everywhere.

who would have thought?
this isn't the end.

i don't feel emotion, no, all i feel is the weather.
ask me how i'm doing i'll always reply.
i'm hot, i'm cold, i'm sticky, i'm wet.
i'm not about to let
you into my mind. to see my
fears and my desires my aching heart. no
you won't see that, i won't allow it.
so many years it's been forced inside i don't even know
if it's still inside have i lost the ability?
have i lost my mind?
after all i'm only a simple kind of guy.

BUT I'M NOT. i'm not about to go farm all day.
go mudding all night. i'm not about to sit around a fire and drink my miller lite.
that's not my style not my truth not my right,
good for you, and you, and you, i hope you're all alright,

it'll be a few years before i see you all again. will i be different will i change
will you be the same will you expand will you realize?
ALL I WANT TO DO IS BELIEVE IN SOMETHING
WHY CAN'T I BELIEVE
WHY CAN'T I FEEL
MAYBE I AM FEELING MAYBE THIS IS HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO BE
but i fear i'm too numb too passive
uncaring
unmoved
unmotivated
unintelligent
it's a big fat fucking lie

deep down. deep down, with my heart between my eyes, with my veins boiling and my mouth a-moving.
that picnic table talk with the ones i'd say i admire most, but i'm just proud of them for keeping theirselves,
revelations regenerate you made me see you made the most perfect sense anybody has ever made to me.
i'd also like to say i hope to end up like you but i don't i can't i won't
me and you we're equal of course i'd never say we weren't but why oh why are you
on the lake. in your car. at the bars. i know i'll see you there. in ten days, in five years, in two decades.
but hey, that's alright. that's fine. why am i defined the way i am? why can't most people see beyond
the look the fad the jeans the hair the shirt the words flowing out of my mouth

instead of eyes i'd prefer soul vision.